Curiosity, Thoughts and Whatever...

What make matter worst was late last year we had an appraisal or was it a year before that. He say this and that and etc. I just ask him a few question and he couldn't answer me. Basic simple question. I ask him why I was not being promoted nor upgraded since I had done so much for the company and yet a person who is far less superior than me are able to get an automatic upgrade. Is it just because she is doing another more important model ? Was it her boss is somebody who is more superior than you ? zNeedless to say, at the end of it he didn't give me any answer and therefore I told him if that is the case I rather do minor job and hence just relax.

That wish was fulfilled. Since early this year, I wasn't given any model to be in charge of and I wasn't brief and told what was my responsoibility. It seem to me that he is either trying to push me out indirectly or he was trying to give the elder boss an impression that he is the one who is doing all the work. Unfortunately life is very amusing. He is going to be promoted to becoming a manager soon. I do not know what kind of KPI the Japanese bastard see or evaluate with. All they ever see is his broad smile and dumb smart cool face look. He is just a "YES" man and that's what he ever will be. Therefore whenever the company tries to talk KPI, appraisal or evaluation with me, I will let them know a piece of my mind. What kind of system are they trying to make when in fact the Jap are totally clueless and ignorant about it. They also don't bother about it cause they will be leaving for home every 5 years. They have no responsibility or whatsoever with regard to the local company. Jap are just as selfish as others.

Since then, whenever he gave me jobs to do, I have always completed it efficiently and without any question ask. Therefore there is no question here with regard to me not performing nor under performing. I had proven to be more than capable of leading people and in charge of making and seeing through the whole project single handily. I have proven to be efficient and cost conscious by winning the Managing Director's Award. I had proven to be an all rounder and participated as a team player as well in a few highly successful project that brought the company lots of profit. Its all there to be seen in my entire work record. My model and many years of project. I have live to done it all. Nevertheless, all this come to nothing and not appreciated. Hence, my disappointment with the management and the people who has the means to change and make all this wrong to right.

However, since all this are no fault of mine hence I cannot just lay back and do nothing to contribute to the demise of my brain cell. I need to exercise my brain power. Challenge my intellectual tinkering. Company does not appreciate me and hence are under utilizing me. A loss for the company and a gain for myself. It not my fault that I have a useless boss and who doesn't have a brain. The company should be asking why or who on earth gave the opportunity to this idiot to be promoted in the first place. Period.